I’m an atheist. For those who have read my blog extensively, this probably isn’t news to you. However, I’ve decided I need to have a “coming out” post, if you will. I just don’t think we (atheists, and our close pals, the agnostics) spend enough time discussing our beliefs. Yes, we have beliefs. No, I don’t have to go to church and worship a god to think about the universe, death, and other important topics.
While nonbelievers apparently make up 16% of the American population (according to Bill Maher’s Religulous, anyway), it can feel pretty lonely sometimes when most, if not all of your friends, colleagues, and family members are religious. Since we are a minority, there is always this push to conform to society’s expectations, to assimilate. I have been counseled by one of my parents to pretend to be “agnostic” because it makes people more comfortable knowing that there’s at least the possibility of my salvation. Another relative has told me that it is important, above all else, to be spiritual, even if I can’t bring myself to attend Sunday mass.
It is kind of amusing the lengths people will go to fit you into a box you’re just not meant for. For example, my grandmother was terrified that I would go to hell if I wasn’t baptized. My parents, one a former Lutheran, the other a former Catholic, thought baptism was for the birds. So, my saintly grandmother took it upon herself to get some holy water and baptized me in her living room. I was saved. At least, until the local priest informed my grandmother that only priests can baptize and that indeed, her granddaughter was going to rot in hell.
Can I just say, this is what I find to be so fucked up about religion. Couldn’t the priest just let my sweet old grandmother have some peace of mind? Did he have to tell her that I’m doomed for eternal suffering? It seems a little ridiculous that he felt compelled to ruin her day just because of these “rules” written in some ancient book – I mean, the Bible.
Another interesting tale centering my grandmother (who, I might add, is the only Christian I’ve ever met that perfectly represented what virtue means) is that she was a Methodist before marrying my Irish Catholic grandfather. Grandpa forced her to convert to Catholicism before they wed, and for the rest of her days, my grandmother was devout and diligent in her beliefs. My grandfather rarely went to church. The moral of this story? Don’t make your wife convert because you are deeply religious, do it because your religion is “better” than hers. Force her to give up her childhood beliefs so that you can claim your children are being raised right – according to other Catholics, anyway.
Beyond the fact that I find religion to be the “opiate of the masses” (to quote my pal Karl), I must admit it was pretty nice not being forced to go to Sunday school or church. My Sundays were spent with my family, playing games and going to art and science museums while other children were on their knees, hands clasped together in prayer. The few times I did attend church on Easter Sunday, I was allowed to bring a sketchbook and my cousins and I would have contests to see who could eat the most mini Milky Ways without our parents noticing.
All of that aside, what I’d like is to be allowed to believe (or disbelieve) whatever I want. We’re supposed to be respectful of religion; in fact most atheists tip-toe around religious people’s beliefs because their faith is sacred, meaningful, and holy. Yet, our beliefs are persecuted, mocked, and questioned the second we admit to being atheist. When someone talks about their faith, they command respect and awe from their peers. When I voice my beliefs, people tell me I’m going to hell, I’m a Satan-worshipper, or that I’m morally bankrupt. I get asked the same question over and over, “So you don’t believe in ANYTHING!?”
Fuck that. I believe in tolerance, I believe in diplomacy rather than waging holy war, and I believe that if I have one more person preach to me about the severity of my sins I’m going to pass out from high blood pressure. So to the people who think it’s “in bad taste” to discuss religion over dinner, I say, bring it on. I’d love to share.
- Dollface, Heathen Extraordinaire
I commend you for finally coming ‘out of the closet’ per se, and joining the rest of us. But I disagree with a few things mentioned, such as the claims atheists have ‘beliefs’ I totally disagree with. I’ve nothing, the lack thereof a belief. ( Check what ‘disbelief’ actually means. ) But the sentiment is basically the same so I suppose it’s a trivial bit to narrow down.
The other thing, was that you commented about being respectful of religion. I 100% do not stand by this claim at all. I do not respect concepts, ideas, or beliefs. I will respect the person that holds them, if they deserve said respect, but to respect something that you likely consider foolish, cruel, manipulative, etc. is outright absurd. Respect what deserves respect, not what as you put it, people expect you to.
Shawn, thanks for commenting. I use the word belief to mean “stuff I have opinions about”. Faith, to me, is religious belief. However, when I say I’m an atheist, people seem to think I’m a morally bankrupt zombie who doesn’t consider life, death, or other topics that religion holds dear.
I was also trying to make the point that we are “supposed” to respect people’s beliefs. I, like you, do respect the people, not their faith. The main point of my post is merely that I’m tired of towing the line just because I’m expected to. Obviously, my true feelings are that religion is detrimental to society. This post signals the end of attempting to live up to religious people’s expectations of me.
I suppose that is what made my nose twitch. Having to come out, using their language, even though they still will not get it. Either way, welcome to the officially professed atheist club. Nachos on the table.
Hey welcome to the Atheosphere!
When I saw the title of your post in my reader I assumed it was from one of the atheist blogs I subscribe to so it was a nice surprise to see that it wasn’t and that someone was coming out of the closet.
Welcome!
I tend to describe my feelings in a similare way. I don’t believe in god, but I do have beliefs.
This conversation actually happened on my blog once.
The patronising, disrespectful, assuming commenter said: i respect your opinion, but it just seems impossible to live without believing in a higher power. I know for a fact that I would not be able to function and be healthy and happy if I believed there was no God. It sounds like such a sad existence to me.
But hopefully you are doing okay, and maybe some day you will find something to believe in (hopefully it will be God- but believing in something is always better than believing in nothing!)
I said: I do believe in lots of things, I believe in happiness, human rights, love, equality, family, friends, sparkles and science.
Dollface – read Ishiguro, for sure! I loved Never Let Me Go in ways that I don’t even think my review could capture!
Stephenson is actually a really good book to follow Ishiguro – they address some of the same issues – but slightly differently.
I consider myself agnostic…for reasons unknown. I don’t know how a god could exist, but I don’t know how matter could form from nothing either.
I guess I’m just non-committal.
I associate myself with Eastern philosophy, typically Buddhism–though a lot of people question whether things like Taoism and Buddhism and Confucianism are even religion. I’ve also become interested recently in Wicca and the spiritual traditions of indigenous peoples (courtesy Cecelia). I think I do search for something spiritual in my life, but I totally understand where you are coming from dollface. There is so much stigma in our society attached to atheists (and I think polytheists too).
I believe it was LaMettrie who said that war was purely the cause of religion. And if you look back in history, it does seem like violence has been the result of people trying to force their religious beliefs on others. I think it’s fair for people in our world to look for psychological contentment in religion and spirituality, but I definitely don’t think forcing a single religious perspective on an entire population is right.
It’s your concluding paragraph that really gets at the heart of what you’re conveying. You may not believe in a God, but that doesn’t make you any less human or deserving of respect. You are deeply humanitarian, you are a feminist because you love and care about women, you blog about class and Marxism because you care about an end to poverty and world suffering. Having a God =/= being a good person. Having religion =/= being a good person. Desire and action to change the world for the better I’m much more inclined to say does.
@ Sisyphus – Thanks!
@ Ms Constantine – Thanks for the comment. That comment someone left on your blog is pretty out there…I’ve gotten a lot of the same. It’s so holier-than-thou & patronizing to say stuff like “I hope you find God someday”
@ lena – I look forward to reading it.
@ Jackie – It’s all good to be non-committal. My boyfriend is agnostic and he says that there is no proof either way. We have interesting debates over it but it’s not really an issue since he “defaults” to thinking there is no God.
@ Dolly – There is definitely stigma against religions that don’t conform to the same standards as the Big Three (Christianity, Islam, Judaism). Granted I think all of them are nutso, but I admit that I’m more comfortable talking to someone who is Unitarian Universalist or Buddhist than other religions (mostly because they are both very tolerant religions…or is that an oxymoron???)
I’m a firm believer in the idea that war is caused by religion. Even the Iraq war, which arguably stems from greed for oil, is connected with Bush’s ideology. He said that he is doing “God’s mission” in Iraq. If you look at his foreign policy doctrine, he believes that spreading democracy is an American duty to the world…uh, the Crusades anyone?
My beliefs are weird. While I consider myself a witch because I use magic, I don’t really believe in a lot of the ‘witch’ deities and I definitely don’t follow all the so called rules that witchcraft has. If I wanted rules, i would have become Catholic….
Anyway, I believe. I just don’t narrow down what I believe in. And I could totally see how there could be no god or gods or archetypes or afterlife or whatever. We are all just star dust held together with magnetism anyway.
Congrats on this post. it’s always good to see when people say ‘Hey, I think this is fucked up and i’m not afraid to say it, even though I know people will look at me funny’.
Interesting, I have beliefs like Dolly’s but I think I’d be in that 16% if someone gave me that survey. In Canada I think I’ve heard that 16% are non-believers and I’ve heard it’s a higher number but not that much higher. At first I was surprised that there weren’t more people here that don’t identify with a religion. Church attendance HAS gone down a lot. I guess we don’t talk about religion much. People talk about their religion once in a while but I never hear people talk about their atheism. When I think about the people I know, I can think of a bunch that identify with a religion and the rest I haven’t talked to about religion. Though I do wonder how many people here identify with a religion but it’s not a part of their daily life. I have cousins who’ve sent their kids to Catholic school and had them do the communion but I’ve never heard of them going to church or reading the Bible.